Wow, what a dismal week. If you read the post below you’ll know what started it. So I’m trying, really trying, to just get out and do all the things I would normally do, which if you’ve ever been depressed, you know that’s what’s needed. Last night I had tickets to a very strange concert – kind of a rap concert about Iraq, by a soldier who was over there for a while. Not necessarily the most uplifting event possible, but still, I didn’t want to miss it. The thing is, it’s just pouring and has been for days. It was almost soothing the first night, as it so nicely mimicked my frame of mind.
So I’m driving down there in darkness, rush-hour traffic, and pouring rain, aware that the traffic is much heavier than I expected and I might not get there in time. And what should be playing on NPR, but a long interview on All Things Considered about an author (William Styron) who went through a serious depression – explaining in excruciating detail just what contributed to it and what depression feels like. Another mood enhancer, to be sure ;)
Anyway, I get there with just minutes to spare, park illegally, and run over to the theater – only to find this is the one event in the whole seasonal series that isn’t at THAT theater, but at another one across town. At this point, I’m giving up and going home – because I didn’t know how to get to the other one, and by then I really would be late. And I really wasn’t sure it would help my mood. Now I’m getting poured on walking back to my car, because I forgot my umbrella (!) which somehow just feels right.
So I drive home, musing about all this. Finally, some soothing jazz comes on, and the evening takes a slight turn for the better. When I get home, I call up an old friend and we talk for about two hours. Which finally makes it time for bed and sleep – yay! Then today, trying again to work, no luck concentrating. I need to go out and take the summer plants out of the pond, but it just keeps raining. I guess I will put on my raingear and do it, since it looks like it’s scheduled to rain all week (I can hardly wait).
My one giggle for the day is seeing a Craig’s List ad for a guy who will come and be your naked Mr. Fix-it slave for a day, cleaning your house in the nude, fixing anything that needs fixing, and presumably anything else you want to do! of course my thoughts went to the things that need doing around here – number one being putting up a curtain rod and curtains in my big picture window in the living room – hehehe wouldn’t that give the neighbors something to look at – especially in this suburban community :) And then the gutters need cleaning… ^.^ OK – I’m rambling – but I get to have a little fun :)
Tonight I’m going to a role-playing game called Call of Cthulhu – set in the 1920s, based around the paranormal and creatures from H.P. Lovecraft’s world. I play a wealthy society matron who is reknowned for her parlor seances (and has a little pearl-handled pistol filled with silver bullets which she inherited from her granddaddy). We are all psychic investigators, seeking out these weird entities to destroy them. Unfortunately, if you know anything about Lovecraft’s world, there’s a good chance that we’ll go a little insane in the process, and your character picks up oddities and quirks after doing this long enough :D Should be fun!